I thought it was all over. We broke up and I thought that was the end of the matter.
Little did he know that the world that he was living in nearly came crashing down.
MGTOW men, welcome back. Please, please listen to today’s entire talk, because as I’ve been asking for more men to share their MGTOW testimonies about how they came to MGTOW and what MGTOW has done to benefit them in their lives, I’ve been receiving some stories of unbelievable peril that has been tiptoed past, only for men to be able to see freedom on the other side of a seemingly pitch black tunnel.
Today is a story about how a MGTOW brother who has just turned 40 recounts how his ex-girlfriend didn’t take a breakup so well, and in turn, keyed his car and then proceeded to tell the cops in a deceit-ridden voice, “fine, I am going to tell the police you raped me.” She then followed up again and said, “you’re going to pay for this.”
I can’t wait that much longer, so let’s read this one as there is a lot to analyze regarding this story. And for the sake of this email, I will not use his real name, although unlike many emails that I receive, I will be reading all of it, because every word needs to be detailed.
The Harrowing Story of a Near Sexual Assault Charge
I’ve been a fan of your channel since I first saw your collaboration video with Jerry Liu. What wisdom you already have in your early 20s! I wish that someone had passed this knowledge to me when I was finding my way into the world 20 years ago.
I felt compelled to share this story and feel free to make a video to show the journey I took to become the MGTOW man that I am today, having turned 40 last year, I believe things happen for a reason and the trials and tribulations I’ve experienced through life has done nothing but changed me for the better and made me stronger.
Like many young men growing up, I was indoctrinated by friends, family and the media that you grow up, meet a woman of your dreams, marry her, have children and then live happily ever after. I spent my youth and my 20s believing and living that lie.
I came from a strong family and was brought up by my parents who to this day is still married, they have been and continue to be the best parent anyone could wish for. I also have a little sister whom I love dearly – she is now married with children.
Like many blue pilled young men, I spent my youth chasing for that perfect woman that never existed, I dated girls throughout my 20s but for some reason, I never felt compelled to make any of them my ‘girlfriend’. I was already worn down with the experience and drama that women bring. I did the same things that young men would do back in the day to impress girls, shower them with attention and gifts, get into debt buying flashy sports cars and going to the gym to attain a gym honed physique – all just to try and attract ‘the one’.
For various reasons, I started to doubt and questioned the need to find a girlfriend, my nearest and dearest always wonder and asked when I’m going to find a nice girl to settle down with, I simply reply: ‘I’m looking’. But inside knowing that the drama that a woman can bring…I just wanted female company for sex. I never felt close enough to make any of them ‘the one’.
Then I met a woman while I was at a nightclub celebrating my 30th birthday, I noticed there was something different about her – I will only refer to her as ‘X’ to protect her anonymity for reasons that I will go into later. I asked her out for a date and hit it off pretty quickly. She is 11 years my senior but looked much younger. The first time we had sex together, it was out of this world and I was hooked from then on.
It was as though I found the girl that I was looking for, I enjoyed her company…she had a quirky personality and fantastic in bed. I had sex with her from the get go with no protection – she told me not to worry as she was on the pill. She had a steady job bringing in good money, independent. Everything seemed great.
People say that women pretend to be something they’re not for the first 90 days of their relationship – well all I can say is X did just that. What appeared on the surface as the perfect ‘NAWALT’ started to reveal her true side…
X became increasingly dependent and wanted to spend time with me a lot, I went along with it but soon got tired of it. Her drinking became a bit of an issue and I did not enjoy her company when she starts to get emotional. We began to have arguments, fall out, then make up and have amazing sex again. It was as though she revealed in this drama. I soon wanted an out.
Tired of what this relationship had become, in my mind I only saw X as a ‘friends with benefits’ given her age. I plucked up the courage to tell her that I wanted to end it. She did not take it well. We broke up and I thought that was the end of the matter.
What followed was something that you would read in the news but never imagine it would happen to you. She began to stalk me, phoning and texting me constantly to the point that I changed my number. Then realising that she could not reach me, started to buzz my door to get into my apartment. She then sent me a note to say that she is pregnant. My heart stopped a beat and didn’t know what to do. The only thing left was to race over to her house – she then admitted it was a lie to get me to talk to her.
I was so angry that she lied, but being the blue pilled guy that I was, I allowed her manipulation and reason to welcome her back into my life – all because the amazing sex that we had and I was missing.
However things would quickly turn sour as her old ways would surface again causing a rift, we would then spend the next 5 years having an on and off relationship – she voiced her frustrations many times that I never wanted to make her my girlfriend and it was going nowhere – I simply wanted to use her for sex. Which I did but was never man enough to admit. Knowing that I only wanted her as a FWB, I never ever introduced her to my friends and family.
I then decided that I had to end things, things went back to normal: she made multiple attempts to get in touch, she then resorted to vandalising my car twice (I believe she did it but the police could not find evidence to prove it), she even tried to reach me at work. I resisted and kept her shut out of my life. I then filed a restraining order.
I lived the next 2-3 years on edge hoping that X would disappear from my life. I began dating other girls but never wanted to pursue anything serious with the fear that it would follow the same pattern.
Then one evening, X rang my apartment and wanted to see me for ‘one last time’. thinking I was doing the right thing at the time, I relented and went outside my apartment to talk to her. She seemed calmed and wanted to try again one last time, I firmly told her it was the end after all she has put me through. She then came up close to me and whispered: “Fine, I am going to tell the police you raped me…”.
From that moment, I felt as though everything came crashing down on me. I could not believe what I was hearing. Nothing will prepare anyone to hear someone admitting that they are about to make a false allegation just to punish you. In anger, I then began to tell her to leave get out of my sight. She began to shout from the top of her voice that ‘I can’t believe you raped me…’. I pushed her away and ran back into my apartment to call the police. I looked outside and X went to my car and started to scratch all 4 sides. I began to feel nothing but anger and hatred and ran outside and pushed her away – she fell backwards onto the ground and started crying.
A few moments later, the police arrived and before they got out of the car, X smirked and remarked: “You’re going to pay for this…” The police escorted X away in a car and the other officers took my side of the story. They filed an incident and advised me that I may be contacted to assist them on this matter. I was shook up afterwards. I could not believe what just had happened.
I never felt more alone at that point. I couldn’t turn to anyone. Would anyone even believe me?
Three days later, the police came to my apartment and I was taken and detained for 8 hours for questioning. I gave my account of what happened and was relieved that I was released without charge. The restraining order that I filed 3 years before and throughout my time, I had kept evidence of any contact from X which strengthened my defense when I was being questioned.
My lawyer (I’m in Europe), kept me updated with developments throughout and 8 months later, I received official confirmation that there would be no charges brought against me as there was no credible evidence for the accuser to bring this case to court. I was relieved. I felt as though I was reborn after being nailed onto a cross like Jesus.
To this day, I have kept this hidden – never told anyone apart from my best friend whom I trust more than anyone else. Even my family doesn’t know this. I could never imagine someone so close to me could look me in the eye and accuse me of rape. The fire that I had burning for X died that evening. It left me a changed man.
Sunrise, I wanted to share this with you because all the #metoo hysteria has done nothing but bring back all this. I was very fortunate that there was due process when I was dealing with this false allegation to clear my name. I’m forever thankful that the authorities treated me in a fair way, I very much doubt I would receive the same treatment if this had happened today…
Many thanks for taking the time to read this. I would be grateful to hear your thoughts and insight on this. Please share this with my MGTOW brothers out there, as this story needs to be told of what women is capable of doing. I would love to collaborate with you to give a full account of my story as you’re looking to write an ebook. I’d be happy to contribute and expand on how I now live my life after that traumatic experience.
Take care and hoodies up.
The Post Game Breakdown – The Illusion of the NAWALT, the Promiscuity of Borderline Personality Disorder, the Necessity of No and Her Final Opportunity
This story, this story is truly staggering. We are in the midst of the #MeToo movement, and I’m not even going to go there as I know that everyone is nauseated over continued referencing of it and hearing it pop up in your news feed. But why this is important in the #MeToo lens that has been created, is that it brings to light just how cautious you have to be. Even the most prepared man, taking all the precautions that he needs to, not sleeping with women, taking screenshots of text messages, recording conversations if it is legal – even if these things are done today, because contracts don’t mean anything anymore to people and because even consensual contracts don’t mean anything and dissatisfying sexual relationships and breakups are leading to claims of sexual assault – this right here, those dangers and uncertainties should elucidate one of the sharpest images possible for going MGTOW if you don’t already have one.
This horror story right here. We literally witnessed a man’s life go flashing past our eyes and my eyes as I initially read this email, and because of this we go MGTOW. We are careful, we ghost and you don’t play with fire when that fire is controlled by these characteristics:
Brother – thank you for emailing me, and I’m beyond thankful that you didn’t suffer from a life in jail or a record tarnished for the rest of your existence for something that you didn’t do. But, as we all have in these situations with women, and in this case, a Jezebel woman, we made mistakes where we could have cut things off and ended it. MGTOW is moreso a preventative measure and thus, it should bring to note ways to protect yourself from a Jezebel woman. Because, this is what happens when a Jezebel woman is brought into your life and you let one enter into your life. It will control you. You will become her. You will fawn and lust over the power that you extract from being with not her, but her body. But, in her presence you feel ill. You feel dark, and that is because you carry the aura of the Jezebel woman.
If you have been following my channel for the past few months, you may remember my video in which I touch on the Jezebel woman. Before I move on here, I want to note the characteristics of the Jezebel woman:
- This person will seek attention and promote themselves
- They will attract people that are sharp and often times attractive
- They are overly demanding and manipulative
- They are confrontational and create ultimatums
- They do possess charisma, but it is usually rooted in vain effort and narcissism
- They pursue chaos, and can’t live in any doldrum
- They can’t accept denial, as it often reflects a past of rejection and abuse
In modern day diagnoses and comparisons, a Jezebel woman is someone that is seen by modern understanding as someone that might possess borderline personality disorder. The correlation here is that there are countless research articles and a literature review in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders that show repeated connections between borderline personality disorder and things such as sexual impulsivity, sexual preoccupation, meaning it takes precedence in their mind, they have greater sexual exposure throughout their life, value sex more and they likely are very good at it and tempt you using these things.
I don’t know if this was the woman that you were with in this story, but from the sounds of it, I think that she might possess these traits. And again, I’m not here to condemn anyone with this disorder, it often originates out of conditions that they can’t control, but I believe that there is also a spiritual connection this type of person that is very dark. Be warned, and also be aware of their past.
It’s also important to consider contextual things obviously, such as her age in this instance. As a result, she is going to be responding with more volatility to your demand that you breakup with her because she is in her 40s and with each misstep in a relationship that doesn’t end in marriage, she is lessening the likelihood that she actualizes something that whether or not she realizes, she is seeking in these men, marriage. Expect huge blowback in this situation!
The reason that I say this is that, someone that acts such as this woman did is often controlled by a past of pain and strife in their life. This woman might have been abused, she may have been abandoned as well. In order to restore or right this pain and emptiness in her mind, she fills it with a temporary fix. These temporary fixes always fall along the path of being huge highs and also massively deep lows in life. But, they will also do so through sex. Regardless of how sex is portrayed in the media, sex is the most intimate activity that you can perform with another person in a short amount of time. It does not replace long term forms of intimacy and trust that actually repair wounds and help people move on, such as talking about issues that you have, learning to build trust through actions with a person or creating a respect of character between two people, but because it is a short fix of intimacy, what it ends up being in the mind of this type of person, and in the eyes of your ex most likely, is that intimacy through sex helps to quell the pangs of abandonment. Sex is used both consciously and subconsciously to act as a tie to that person, which was you and which you experienced off an on and especially during the early portions of your relationship, because that intimacy masks the feelings of abandonment. But, we know that that doesn’t create a true bond between people, but the mind tells that them that it will. Therefore, they just keep repeating the same process over and over without giving it much thought, because she likely lived with very little introspection, especially considering the fact that she was in her 40s and she was coming after you, a considerably younger male at the time. Why was that? What was going on there? She likely never looked within at all throughout these years, and so when you said, no – this relationship isn’t going any further, it doesn’t register in her mind that your infatuation with her for the lustful reasons would be enough to keep you around. Because it wouldn’t.
And right here is what is so important about this observation – this archetype that you experienced man, this was created by a system. Often times this is created by feminism subversively, through the uprooting of the home and the devaluing of the nuclear family and order. With that gone, promiscuity and off the rails behavior is far more common in order to account for the lack of affirmation that was had growing up. It’s a basic remedy and explanation right here, but I guarantee you that over and over you will see that this situation rears its ugly head. MGTOW men, we are going our own way from a relationship standpoint right here because of the dividing power of feminism and relativism. You are going to have be saddled with a job as not only a husband, but also a reparative person, all the while you have your own issues and societal constraints to sift through? Good luck in marriage.
Also, this situation not only paints a picture for why we go MGTOW because we obviously don’t want false allegations of rape saddled on to us – the reason that we go our own way and don’t expose ourselves to these types of relationships. The reason is that, you can’t undervalue the social capital that can be lost. For example, sure, you win a settlement, you go through a divorce, whatever it may be – and you’re on the other end of it – but many people can’t get past the fact that this certain time and event is on your record. The way that people perceive you is not as simple as you’d like it to be, and if definitely takes into account things such as this. It also takes a toll on your health, as during this time you probably had a spike in cortisol frequently, stress levels were high, you had to walk on eggshells to maintain the relationship and also keep her from your friends and family – as a result, other areas of your life are impacted, even work and your health, maybe even your sleeping pattern. MGTOW won’t benefit you ultimately if your health isn’t in check, as you won’t be able to enjoy life if you’re not healthy and alive! The impact that being around a volatile person like this can have on your health can lead to adrenal fatigue, tension headaches, increase blood pressure, depression, weight gain and even the development of paranoia, which many Jezebel spirits have been found to possess. You will adopt her characteristics as well, and soon you will not be able to understand why until that is already enmeshed into you.
Closing Thoughts – The Illusion of the NAWALT and the Necessity of No
I aim to be pithy, but I realize that I have kept you guys long today. But, I have two more things that I want to point out right here. What appeared on the surface to be the NAWALT…she then started to reveal her true side though.
And now you know the rest of the story!
You know that line right? That’s the line regarding the illusion of the NAWALT, this principle that continues to rear its head in these stories and testimonies, when on the outside that woman that you’re with appears to be perfect, but like anything, with time, the blemishes begin to emerge. I like to think of it in this simplistic fashion right here: anyone, regardless of how poor or rich, can go to the club and look like a millionaire with his life in line, the cuff links, the initials embroidered into his jacket, the rolex watch – everything. Every man can do that once, but, how do you know that that’s the only thing he owns. You don’t even need $1,000 grand to pull off the look to steal a person’s heart for a night. And that’s what’s happening with the supposed NAWALT. People say that the first three months of the relationship that other person appears to be immaculate. I would give it less than that when your gut is the measurement tool, the barometer, because as you said – from the beginning you didn’t want your parents or friends to know. You ascribed respect to those people, and for people you respect, you don’t want to show yourself in a way that would make them disrespect you.
That is when you need to say no, as you said – you didn’t completely pull the trigger. That’s something that I’ve been guilty of and have not done in the past, and that is fueled out of a glimmer of insecurity and not being able to say no and count on yourself for making the right decision. Malcolm Gladwell in the movie, “Blink”, “there can be as much value in the blink of an eye as in months of rational analysis.” Thus, when it’s time to cut off and move on, it needs to be – a quick, five-second cost-benefit analysis reveals that she was never going to be more to you than a sexual partner. Sure, emotions are involved, but now we have these stories to help us understand, the key is remembering. The key is ingesting, but also practicing and continually taking and consuming, not just treating the world as a goldfish does and deleting it from your memory. It needs to be internalized.
MGTOW men. I hope that this story reached you and you found something within it today, because I already did in reading it.
And as I always say, whether you write well are eloquent or aren’t, I couldn’t care less – send your story my way, I want to hear it and share it, because it will help someone out there as they aim to go MGTOW.
Also, at the end of each video I’ve been announcing that I want to put together a book – a collection of stories from MGTOW men sharing how they came to MGTOW and what MGTOW has done to benefit them. To take part in that, let me know at firstname.lastname@example.org or on Twitter @sunrisehoodie.
Hoodies up men, hoodie is out!